Documents released by Connecticut State Police Sunday detail the state of mind of the man behind the 2012 mass shooting at Sandy Hook Elementary School that left 26 people dead, including 20 children.
A judge ordered the release of the documents after a five-year battle that ended in a legal victory for the Hartford Courant before the state Supreme Court.
A motive was never determined for Adam Lanza, who fatally shot himself after the attack.
The Courant reports that the shooter was diagnosed as a child with a sensory disorder and delayed speech, but was adept with science, math and language.
His sensory disorder reportedly made him very sensitive to textures, sound, light and movement. He kept away from his classmates, averse to their clothes and the noise they made.
{mosads}Some of the documents where Lanza expresses his views appear to be drafted as communication with someone else, the Courant reports.
“I incessantly have nothing other than scorn for humanity,” he reportedly wrote in one draft. “I have been desperate to feel anything positive for someone for my entire life.”
“Relationships have absolutely no physical aspect to me; all that matters is communication,” he reportedly wrote in another document, entitled, “Me.”
The shooter held rigid beliefs on a variety of topics, the Courant reported based on the documents.
He reportedly had a deep disdain for his peers as well as anyone who was overweight.
He also reportedly believed certain aspects of life were worse than death and had a deep aversion to the feel of a metal door handle and food mixing on his plate.
Lanza said he was molested by doctors in one of the documents, writing that it was sanctioned by his parents, and wrote that he believed children were routinely sexually assaulted by doctors because they are “coerced” into exams, according to the Courant.
His writings also expressed a fascination with murder, according to the Courant.